.credit to gg.
thanx sooo much gg for your help! appreciate it sooo much!!haih..biler la nak belajar gune adobe photoshop nih..
dah brape kali la lain2 orang ajar, tapi tak masuk2 gak.. haha..
thanx fareez for borrowing me your caps for my photo-shooting collection. still learning to take the right angle, but it seems that these are the only best shots that i THINK they are good in my pov. hehe..
*dun bother, i'm writing craps*
p.s: i love my crowd Siti Khadijah!! Tq Amie, Yatt, Anith, Jue, K.Alan & Nana!
*huggss*
.extra love.
Love the heart that hurts you,
but never hurt the heart that loves you.
Cuz you want a perfect girl,
And I’m not what you expected.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.
Maybe I should put some makeup,
And find some crazy outfits.
But I am very tired today
And I don’t care if I’m not pretty.
(Soko; Shitty Day)
p.s: i had been busy during weekend photo-shooting plus preparing myself for the pathan colloq.. will be updating soon! =)
but never hurt the heart that loves you.
***
Cuz you want a perfect girl,
And I’m not what you expected.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.
Maybe I should put some makeup,
And find some crazy outfits.
But I am very tired today
And I don’t care if I’m not pretty.
(Soko; Shitty Day)
p.s: i had been busy during weekend photo-shooting plus preparing myself for the pathan colloq.. will be updating soon! =)
.and i hope it last.
instead of writing my pathphys notes
i'm here posting an entry
instead of stuffing the clothes into the machine
i'm here making mess of the stack of clothes that i'v already fold
instead of being stressed out and angry
i'm here smiling and laughing, like there's nothing to worry
instead of drinking soya to shuush away the blackheads and all-those-dots
i'm here taking caffeine pot by pot
instead of planning the winter break getaway
i'm here daydreaming and just longing on bed, seemingly so faraway
instead of getting a D
i'm here surprisingly to get a C.
and that's
because i know i can get past wednesday with no heartbreak
because i know that tomorrow the sun is still there to shine
because i know i'v gotten what Mama and Abah wanted in me
because i love you and you and you and you
and there's no room for hatred.
i'm here posting an entry
instead of stuffing the clothes into the machine
i'm here making mess of the stack of clothes that i'v already fold
instead of being stressed out and angry
i'm here smiling and laughing, like there's nothing to worry
instead of drinking soya to shuush away the blackheads and all-those-dots
i'm here taking caffeine pot by pot
instead of planning the winter break getaway
i'm here daydreaming and just longing on bed, seemingly so faraway
instead of getting a D
i'm here surprisingly to get a C.
and that's
because i know i can get past wednesday with no heartbreak
because i know that tomorrow the sun is still there to shine
because i know i'v gotten what Mama and Abah wanted in me
because i love you and you and you and you
and there's no room for hatred.
i wish to give every ounce of my cheerfulness to those who need a sunshine in their mourning day.
and i hope i make u smile.
and i hope i make u smile.
.Happy 50th Birthday Mama.
and again
i slept early.
a really bad sign, that i know of.
Mama was in my room, praying.
soon after she folded her prayer mat
she came close to me
and said that she wanted to celebrate
her sweet 50th birthday along with me and friends.
i was surprised!
she shouldn't have come this far
just to rejoice the half century of her life with me, here.
i quickly IMed bro and told him that i wanted to get Mama a special cake
not fruity one, but just a simple black forest cake, Mama's favorite.
just before i could step out of the room
Mama wanted to get some rest and lay herself on the bed
and i kissed her forehead, put a blanket on and bid her goodbye
and off i went thinking that that would be the happiest moment celebrating her very joyous day here, with me.
i came back
knocking my own room door
and slide the door open.
but Mama wasn't there.
not on bed sleeping, not even in the bathroom taking bath.
*kak ayu, fatin, Mama, me, noren*
and i woke up.
i cried.
she shouldn't have gone
not even in my dream.
and i cried more and more.
i know, a wish is never enough for Mama
all she wanted is our success
our hopes & dreams to be fulfilled
our happiness in life and ever-after.
and we have proved one of them, yesterday.
Thank you very much, Mama.
*Mama hugging Kak Ayu after solemnization ceremony*
Semoga Tuhan panjangkan umur Mama
Murahkan rezeki Mama,
Turunkanlah rezeki Mama jika di langit
Keluarkanlah rezeki Mama jika di bumi
Berikanlah Mama kebahagiaan di dunia dan di akhirat
Jauhkanlah Mama dari segala hasad dengki dan fitnah
Kurniakanlah kesihatan dan kesejahteraan pada Mama
Terimalah segala amalan Mama
Tenangkanlah hati Mama
Berilah kejayaan dalam apa yang Mama usahakan
Ya Allah, hanya kepada-Mu aku meminta segala doa
Amin..~
p.s: Happy 50th Birthday again, Mama. welcome to Abah's club!
p.p.s: Happy 21st Birthday Zulfadli!
.get involve.
(Projek Kalsom)
***
*they're just so cute*i want to have a passion
i want to scream
i want to get mad
i want to dye my hair red
i want to be noticed
and i want to be worthwhile
because i am not small.
and today
i am almost 10 feet tall.
trust me, it wouldn't be that red!
i want to scream
i want to get mad
i want to dye my hair red
i want to be noticed
and i want to be worthwhile
because i am not small.
and today
i am almost 10 feet tall.
trust me, it wouldn't be that red!
.to write it down.
half dozen of written letter
and i'm still all over the place
blessed and thankful
happy and guilty
nothing to commemorate at the beginning
and soon, a search for the ending
what's the use of having something
but it is not to be shared
it reminds you
that everything
brings me..
p.s: yes, i did miss that nite. and i wish it could happen again.and i'm still all over the place
blessed and thankful
happy and guilty
nothing to commemorate at the beginning
and soon, a search for the ending
what's the use of having something
but it is not to be shared
it reminds you
that everything
brings me..
.that blue eye.
* a few of pic collections of alyn & i*
was watching the Live Webcast of National Angkasawan Programme
and yes, they HAVE landed!
weee...
Alhamdulillah, Dr SMS and the other 2 astronauts has landed at 6.21pm, Malaysian time.
just waiting for the latest news on finding and rescuing these astronauts and bring them back to Moscow and then, home sweet home; Malaysia..
oh yeah, heard that Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak is here to celebrate Dr SMS's landing.
wheeww..
at last these VVIPs are actually here in Moscow for something!
ooppsss!
(i'm listening to Prof Dr Rahman Abdul Jamal, Ketua Pasukan Saintis Sains Angkasa having conversation from Moscow with Nizal while blogging)
anyway, just wait and see what's on the news tomorrow!
***
and yes, they HAVE landed!
weee...
Alhamdulillah, Dr SMS and the other 2 astronauts has landed at 6.21pm, Malaysian time.
just waiting for the latest news on finding and rescuing these astronauts and bring them back to Moscow and then, home sweet home; Malaysia..
oh yeah, heard that Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak is here to celebrate Dr SMS's landing.
wheeww..
at last these VVIPs are actually here in Moscow for something!
ooppsss!
(i'm listening to Prof Dr Rahman Abdul Jamal, Ketua Pasukan Saintis Sains Angkasa having conversation from Moscow with Nizal while blogging)
anyway, just wait and see what's on the news tomorrow!
***
*bro's winning team against chittapa, 5-0!*
lavan scored 3 goals, nabil -1 and shafiq - 1.
and they're goood!!
seriuosly!
not forgetting bro, he saved A LOT of goals
and not even a chance for chittapa to kicked right into the net..
fyi, chittapa was the champion for last year's futsal league.
like wow!
but, this is just the beginning.
there's 7 more weeks to go through
and hope bro's fingers won't hurt and his ligaments won't get torn anymore!
ngeri okayh!
***
as time passes by, i thought;
- Friendship is always about compatibility first, then trust.
- To love is to be completely vulnerable.
- To love someone is to love their flaws and imperfection.
- I am most happy, when i laugh hugely, a soundless laugh.
- If i can change one thing, it would be that i don't want things i like to change.
- If smiles don't reach people's eye, then they're not genuine.
- Money is evil, but still so very necessary.
- By doing this meme, i felt like baring my soul.
*smirk*
p.s: shepherd's pie tuk nabil azmi! yeay! hehe.. house-warming takde ke dude?
p.p.s: Sharon Tay from USA's tv broadcaster said that Dr SMS smiles and waved like he won a lottery! haha.. klakar gak tgk.. no, seriously! too bad it was in the webcast thingy, so i couldn't link you readers anywhere.. sorry!
.rocks & stones.
Truth is what sounds right.
Beauty is what looks right.
Beauty is what looks right.
right?
i had been awake since 7am
and yeah, two movies watched
it has taken me hours of sitting on the bed
wrapped around my quilt
and do nothing but stared at the laptop.
fiza had been running around the room
in and out the door
busy baking her cheese macaroni
while i'm STILL on bed, blogging!
oh, i haven't mention the fact that
i had been spending cash at IKEA
buying cabinets that i could hung up the wall
just because of the traffic in my room
had gotten a lot more busier
after the parcels delivery!
haha..
i'm perfectly happy that i had a great conversation last night
other than the usual dosage.
it was hard to find it right
but, hey, i soon found the cure to it.
it was a semi-trip down the memory lane
i was like, where is this to change me?
i was just hanging on the coat
swinging back and forth
closer, further, closer, further, closer, futher
in that order.
oh seriously, do i have better things to do?
this is the time when i'm just out of idea
but just bragging to my dear mate
about how life could be
if only i was extremely wealthy..
nah, it would put me in wonder.
if only...
wait..
i'll meet you at the rainbow's end!
p.s: it's a feeling that i feel that has no feeling! *bluweek*
i had been awake since 7am
and yeah, two movies watched
it has taken me hours of sitting on the bed
wrapped around my quilt
and do nothing but stared at the laptop.
fiza had been running around the room
in and out the door
busy baking her cheese macaroni
while i'm STILL on bed, blogging!
oh, i haven't mention the fact that
i had been spending cash at IKEA
buying cabinets that i could hung up the wall
just because of the traffic in my room
had gotten a lot more busier
after the parcels delivery!
haha..
i'm perfectly happy that i had a great conversation last night
other than the usual dosage.
it was hard to find it right
but, hey, i soon found the cure to it.
it was a semi-trip down the memory lane
i was like, where is this to change me?
i was just hanging on the coat
swinging back and forth
closer, further, closer, further, closer, futher
in that order.
oh seriously, do i have better things to do?
this is the time when i'm just out of idea
but just bragging to my dear mate
about how life could be
if only i was extremely wealthy..
nah, it would put me in wonder.
if only...
wait..
i'll meet you at the rainbow's end!
p.s: it's a feeling that i feel that has no feeling! *bluweek*
.was thwarted.
it wasn't a big mistake
but it was a little heart-break
but it was a little heart-break
p.s: never take the wind out of somebody's sails
.a cup of juice and a bowl of cereals.
# i'm your dosage of an ordinary girl.
# i adore saturday mornings, rainy days and the comfort in my own crib.
# i love driving fast in highways, something that pushes my adrenaline.
# i think it's just beautiful when people say the right words at the right time.
# i have found someone that could make me live like forever.
# i wish happiness could revolve around me.
# i even thought that smile could mean more than an expression.
# oh, i wish to change the world, only if i could..
* fuel your heart with love *
p.s: my mourning morning with a cup of orange juice full with lies and a bowl of cereals filled with hopes..mr disorder.
*bro's with his all time fav; french fries & vanilla milk shake*
gazed outside the hazy window
and i thought
i have the feeling of 'i-don't-know-whatness'
it's not that i care, but it's tad sideways.
it isn't suppose to happen right now.
i slept early last night.
that's definitely not a good sign.
i'm not happy, definitely not sad.
i'm not angry and why am i suppose to?
i'm not depressed and not down in the dumps
i'm not empty neither that i'm dumb
but i'm pretty sure i'm confused.
whatever it is, i have to make this sense quick!
p.s: lets chalk-up the walls!
***
and i thought
i have the feeling of 'i-don't-know-whatness'
it's not that i care, but it's tad sideways.
it isn't suppose to happen right now.
i slept early last night.
that's definitely not a good sign.
i'm not happy, definitely not sad.
i'm not angry and why am i suppose to?
i'm not depressed and not down in the dumps
i'm not empty neither that i'm dumb
but i'm pretty sure i'm confused.
whatever it is, i have to make this sense quick!
p.s: lets chalk-up the walls!
***
Who am I to say this situation isn't great?
It's my time to make the most of it
How could I ever know that this would happen to me,
not that easy, no
All along the fault is up for grabs
why don't you have it
Well it's for sale go make your offer,
I'll sell it for no less than what I bought it for
Pay no more than absolutely zero.
(Absolutely Zero, Jasan Mraz )
.flucky day, i'd say.
*7 parcels today*
surprisingly, the papers stating my 10kg boxes reaches today!
wee...bro's 3 boxes and mine, count the extras..
tak sangka exactly 2months, unlike 3months last year
sampai kene hantar balik..pity mama..
then, the Korea man, Hisham, posted raya card all the way from there.
thanx dude.. u'r the bestest too!!
i posted it in my flickr.
***
adaptation after a month and sixteen days doesn't give effects at all.
rainbow didn't shine the day i wanted it to.
whiteout seems to dominate the atmosphere.
and that feeling will soon disappear.
***
eid weekend was pack with open houses!
stomach full and i was really bloated up! damn!
syafiq's open house was da bomb! different kinds of curry, with kuih ketayap and roti jala and shugan's lengkung aka agar-agar was luscious!
yummy! everything looks really appetizing.
i thought ramadhan left with my appetite.
but it didn't.
gosh, i really need to workout lah!
ehem.
do you desperately need someone to fill up the blanks??
i don't think so..
***
pathphys's colloq is postpone to this friday.
which means tomorrow's not a 'weekend' for us!
urrgghh..
even this coming real weekend
we're imprisoning ourselves and stick our butt to the chair
for next week's pathan colloq!
aiyah!
but hey, life's to be enjoyed.
at least i still have those moment in time
to actually go snapping wherever i go.
(i feel so pro!)
p.s: blah. gotta go study! *mute*
wee...bro's 3 boxes and mine, count the extras..
tak sangka exactly 2months, unlike 3months last year
sampai kene hantar balik..pity mama..
then, the Korea man, Hisham, posted raya card all the way from there.
thanx dude.. u'r the bestest too!!
i posted it in my flickr.
***
adaptation after a month and sixteen days doesn't give effects at all.
rainbow didn't shine the day i wanted it to.
whiteout seems to dominate the atmosphere.
and that feeling will soon disappear.
***
eid weekend was pack with open houses!
stomach full and i was really bloated up! damn!
syafiq's open house was da bomb! different kinds of curry, with kuih ketayap and roti jala and shugan's lengkung aka agar-agar was luscious!
yummy! everything looks really appetizing.
i thought ramadhan left with my appetite.
but it didn't.
gosh, i really need to workout lah!
ehem.
do you desperately need someone to fill up the blanks??
i don't think so..
***
pathphys's colloq is postpone to this friday.
which means tomorrow's not a 'weekend' for us!
urrgghh..
even this coming real weekend
we're imprisoning ourselves and stick our butt to the chair
for next week's pathan colloq!
aiyah!
but hey, life's to be enjoyed.
at least i still have those moment in time
to actually go snapping wherever i go.
(i feel so pro!)
p.s: blah. gotta go study! *mute*
.caught in memories.
the weather's just so cold and windy.
and it was snowing since the 3rd Syawal here.
was it suppose to be?
autumn leaves aren't even falling yet.
the sun has been hiding behind those hideous grey clouds.
i do hope for sunny day soon.
but, hoping just breaks my heart.
my finger's aren't that numb to not tap the keyboard.
but, the small lil' fan heater i got for UMNO's lucky draw last year isn't functioning as well as before.
a sign for a new one eyh?
guess so.
starring out the window and crystals of snows are covering up the playground outside.
oh, i remembered the time i celebrated my first snow here!
it was hilarious!
but, we shared a moment together.
(click click)
p.s: snow reminds me soooo much of mama. i was born right after winter. that explains why.
and it was snowing since the 3rd Syawal here.
was it suppose to be?
autumn leaves aren't even falling yet.
the sun has been hiding behind those hideous grey clouds.
i do hope for sunny day soon.
but, hoping just breaks my heart.
my finger's aren't that numb to not tap the keyboard.
but, the small lil' fan heater i got for UMNO's lucky draw last year isn't functioning as well as before.
a sign for a new one eyh?
guess so.
starring out the window and crystals of snows are covering up the playground outside.
oh, i remembered the time i celebrated my first snow here!
it was hilarious!
but, we shared a moment together.
(click click)
p.s: snow reminds me soooo much of mama. i was born right after winter. that explains why.
.my twitch.
*this pic was taken during last year's eid mubarak*
so,
i guess this is the start!
i'v been complaining and i realized,
it's no use without the very first step.
and, here i am.
i haven't told my peeps at my friendster that i'm now blogging here.
soon, maybe.
i'll be running in short time.
tonnes of homeworks to do.
and i'll make this blog a better one that my old [my stance]!
anyway, enjoy this vid!
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