.bricks of mind arranged.
it's true when;
Maal Hijrah had past, and here comes the New Year.
new resolution? i still have mine, the previous ones that has not complete yet.
with two exams ahead in january, all i could think about is to understand whatever materials i am reading right now, and that goes to opeha.
i could not dream obsessively.
i learned from mistakes that having too much attachment towards someone or something had proven me right that i'll be surely off my limit of emotion when a step forward is taken wrongly.
nobody was in the right place nor wrong.
it's just the smallest misunderstanding had caused the haywire that slashed deep inside.
the cure? to keep it low at the bottom of the box and consult the very best person in the world, mama.
a new friendship was recently made and the affectionate among us was literally what i thought i had wanted before.
keep that highly flammable smile of yours and remember the markings we made!
the second isn't always the best, right?
even if you think that the first is not going to be as good as the one after.
someone has to just stop looking at another person.
the more we do it, the smaller we feel.
and the more hypocrisy we tend to show.
there's just a few talkabouts in my head.
i just could not run them towards my fingers and tap it down.
if i wait, they'll lost between the others.
if i don't, i am just going to float my boat in the lake of wonders.
yes, i am an antipole to any siblings of mine you knew.
completely a statement when it comes to catching up our conception towards minds.
recently too, an extremely good friend of mine was admitted to the hospital due to brain concussion.
and it was on her birthday.
i am sure she'll be fine, but do pray for her.
i keep you in mine.
thank you readers.
i am smiling yours when you did mine.
*blusshh*
towards a better me and you,
p.s: i need to lessen my caffeine-ness in order to decrease the expansion of my blood vessel!
.total imaginations are better than a quater of reality.
i guess i've met the little annoying creature last night.
the fact that everyone was saying about how typical this creature's community was,
i found it true and what i did last night was being loud and clear on things that made me despise once upon a time ago.
maybe that is why the higher institution of the well-respected association can't be trusted anymore by those who had been along with them when all they know is to make things more entangle.
and oh, i guess the set-up organization are trying their best to keep people away from letting others understand what jodoh is all about.
*gah*
Dallas ClaytonThere is NOTHING outside of it. Captain Love does not exist until I say he exists. As your skill with the sword improves, you will progress to a smaller circle. With each new circle, your world contracts, bringing you that much closer to your adversary, that much closer to retribution.
on a lighter note, the semester of 4th year has officially ended yesterday.
was admiring the batchmate's graduation pictures while i am here dreaming of my graduation day that will take place in two years time.
at least i dream of my future rather than some others who do not.
intensive study is a heavy task right now within this 15-20 days of study leave.
that means, no everyday blogging (yeah, i'm getting use to this now), no uncertain reason of chatting, no hanging around too much in the blogosphere forum and definitely less hibernating!!
on the other hand, i ain't taking the chance carelessly and will be at my best.
i know that the grass is greener on the other side.
to keep me strong, i will take the blame.
just the rudeness. take that far away.
you really do not want my emotions to go on a strike.
i bet you know why.
keeping up,
p.s: if only i'm a genius and opeha is put forward, surely A.nizar can come visit us here! *urgh*
.frost do bite.
i am letting it freeze at the moment.
the glass had broke and i have yet time to put it back together.
it's better to put it that way since the winter exam is coming up.
i decide what i think is best (or maybe worst) when emotions drive me crazy.
anyhow, you're still older than me.
make sure you're wiser enough!
hehehe..
p.s: Bon voyage.
.Pre-departure event.
FAMILY SQUAD
Last game in Moscow for Azim & Azam
where Azam scored his first ever goal
and Azim was too relax not realizing Abon's ball rolling nicely into the goal-post
Aina after tonnes of try-out shoots and at last scored one or two great shots
Ayu and Amir that keeps on falling in the middle of the game but managed to strive back
Aini with her perfect dribble and passing
Uncle with his flying style
and not forgetting Aunty giving moral support to her family from outside the court.
Everyone played well tonite.
This is only what i call a sweat-game!
Azam was non-stop marking me, and at last he was satisfied after winning a frame of pool at Sinbad.
While Azim just can't take his eyes from lurking at the undeniable beauuutiffullll russian chicks!
hahaha...~
More pics coming up soon.
How soon, don't ask.
Enjoying the company,
p.s: Fieza, you should have been in the team. Get well soon dear!
.kamu tentukan sendiri.
To hold her when I'm not around,
When I'm much too far away
We all need that person who can be true to you
I left her when I found her
And now I wish I'd stayed
'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired
I'm missing you again oh no
Once again
Avenged Sevenfold, Dear God.
Guitarist : AmirOn chair : Aina
Down, L-R : Ayu, Aini, Amir, Azam
Aunty SitiI felt so touched with the bytes of the lyrics cause having Aunty Siti around, i felt the presence of Mama, but of course, nothing could beat Mama.
During the past, I had been closed to Cik Yun's family, and now Uncle Manaf's.
And i truly respect on how they had well-treated and taught their children.
Religiously and socially, they have learned manners & respect towards others.
Punishments made by parents are to teach.
But many disobeyed rules and regulations of the house, and so, made them bunch of wilders outside the community.
Blame parents on their child's attitude?
Or the new, weird, funky society that are options to the new generations but they purposely take it as an obligation in order to look cool and be seen by others as someone who follows the latest trend.
Don't want to be left out, eyh?
Zaman dah berubah.
Masihkah katak dibawah tempurung?
p.s: exam > stress > MAKAN > grow sideways > tak sabar futsal training next sem!! betul kata kamu ( jack )!!
kau, aku stresskan untuk kau!
.keinginan dahulu keperluan kini.
where?at ( here! )
This is not what I intended
I always swore to you
I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start
aaahhhh.....giler ah kene saving pasni kalo ( nak yang ni!! )
the Fujifilm S5 Pro.
*****
but i just want this custom-made DSLR (just ANY design) cake
for my any-age birthday!!
boleh kaaaa??
seyes tak makan!
hahaha...~
p.s: keinginan yang pasti. ;p
.Qurban celebration 2008.
Let the pictures speak.
*Menarik kan?*
*Farid Kamil Jr in the house!!*
*Coach Wani with his Ohanians.*
*by Cynicalmd & Tenteramahdi*
*Rendang ayam*
*Sate daging bakar*
*Acar sayur*
*Nasi minyak*
*Ayam masak merah*Getting prepared,
p.s: damn, i need more & more calcium!!
.too fragile to be taken care of.
Someone asked me yesterday during our 'makan-makan' if i was the youngest in the family.
Before answering him, i asked the permission to ask a question back to him.
'Do i look like one and why?'
And so, the answer was yes and too obvious.
What's with the spoilt brat title on me?
I guess i had made a mistake treasuring something too much.
Maybe i was putting most of my feelings in that sack of relationship
and i did not dare myself to explore the wide sea but kept myself to the sack and hold it tight.
Am i learning or not?
I left this sack yesterday.
I do not want to claim although it hurts more than i expected.
I left it at shore and let the waves do its job.
Karina left me this at my FB Wall;
" I miss him, i miss him, i miss him.
So I let his songs play over and over again.
Some days it calms me down, knowing that this voice belongs to me.
But some days it hurts my heart from an angle for he isn't here.
I have him only in fragments. in tiny pieces that I must duly collect over the years.
Let them be my solid collection of memories.
One that can transcend space and time. "
To the Boyfie, this is for him.
But for now, it's the departed sack i missed.
Wait! this is nothing to do with breakups or whatnots!
Don't worry, we're still in love.
***
Lost : The SACK.
Found : Not yet.
***
Self-contra agent,
p.s: Everyday by Simple Plan.
.grateful, gratified, gratuituos.
driven by emotions and heaps of laughter
hanging by the moment where i get to explore & exaggerate myself through the lenses
snapping the priceless facial expression
indulging the feast and tidbits
and socializing with the higher community that only speaks to themselves
taught me that in any level of hierarchy you are
respect and true conversation leads the way to win your partner's smile.
it all depends to the character you are facing with.
it is up to you how you treat the man in disguise.
it lightens up the atmosphere if you won his heart.
chin-up and store the trust you have towards someone.
i bet you will received more than what you expected in return,
although you are not suppose to.
but normal human being isn't running sideways on this matter.
what struck me in an event is when these certain 'tribes'
knows nothing but boot-licking.
yes, and it was obvious.
soon, as i was back home late last night
the incident made me think that every cup of tea given
i will get back a gold pot of expensive tea, richer in taste and aroma.
and to my clans under me, would not get to taste a sip.
you are what you are.
i am what i think i am,
and ( she ) once said,
Al-Mighty made us what we think we are.
i have learned to be grateful.
i have experienced what is like to be gratified.
i want gratuitous to flee itself just right now.
and you?
my selfish thoughts,
p.s: it's futsal tonight, handball tomorrow, another futsal on sunday. can i manage with the ONLY time given?
KLM - Fill a Plane
so, um... yeah, try to check this out.
did this for fun though. huhu..
You think i'll get a free plane ticket around Europe?
haha.. i'd rather go with my family. ;p
take a look at : KLM - Fill a Plane - Promote your plane
.i did not get a holiday.
SALAM AIDILADHA
especially to my family in PJ
big bro & wife in Sarawak
uncles & aunties mostly in Selangor and Johor area
readers and bloggers
anonymous and not
mr boyfie
dearest friends of Little Bell-ians, Skdu-rians, Smkdj-ians, Kusessions, Csmu-ians, Rsmu-ians
friends that i've known all along
facebook-ians
flicker-ians
and Muslims all over the world!!
ok, ( i did not get any vibes of the Aidiladha celebration ).
am going to dermatology class.
ah, i still got some time and space this coming weekend
and really spent my raya that time. hahaha..~
Masjid 'Kuning' Kota Damansara
Sultan Selangor officiated (sound better eyh? ;D) the mosque recently..monkeys are cool, at times.
(the morning-internet-addiction syndrome)
*smirk*
*pap* go slap yourself, layla.
but hey, isn't this just so cool?
it's paul frank, people!
i am really getting one once i'm a pediatric, InsyaAllah.
i like the first one.
it look so kimono-ish.
damn, even the signature bags are way cooler than the Guess handbags.
haha.. yeah right.
slap yourself again.
ok, whatever.
sooner or later, i'll get myself one of these Paul Frank scrubs!!
oh, my 333rd post. lucky number or not ah?
and um, Twilight's book is good, the movie?
um..ahh..it makes me sleepy.
i don't know why there's these Twilight fangirls that could watch it like 3 times in a row!!
i'd rather watch Alvin and the Chipmunks movie repeatedly. seriously!
p.s: can i get PF's watches too? *blergh*
.you don't wait for moments, but you find it.
I was engaged to many stuffs that keep me on the line.
At the same time, tears that ran down and the bags of laughter i shared with them were priceless.
The little voice up there in my head would not stop talking till i finish whatever tasks i was starting.
The wardrobe is again piled up with a few new attires for winter.
Bouquets of roses and a Mango Delight was delivered to the love ones.
Oh, Happy 5* Birthday dearest Abah.
( Blooming )
It all started when i was too young to hold a film SLR Nikon owned by Abah.
He was the one that introduced us, siblings to the world of photography.
Who didn't owned the ( 35mm film camera ) by the famous brand namely Nikon, Canon, Olympus?
Everyone does back in the late 80s and 90s once upon a time ago.
Back then, this gadget that captures moments are just too memorable.
Processing a roll of 36 film is now way too pricey, compared before.
One of the major reasons why digital camera was then invented.
Memory stick, a convenient concept the best they could offer!
Abah's first Sony Cyber Shot digicam was a charm to all.
Having the coolest accessory, a Marine Pack, the smallest underwater housing for a camera had got us all excited to go for a swim-based holiday, and water-activities is a must!
So, there were we snorkeling and swimming all day long testing Abah's cool cam.
Plus, the auto-focus mechanism is at top notch, without a trace of hunting.
Too bad, my russian teacher when i was in 2nd year accidentally drop that sentimental-value-camera on the table with the zoom still on.
You want to know how i felt that time?
Speechless and yeah, even my russian teacher did not dare look at me until the semester ends!
So now, as an unofficial photographer for ( Rufflesia ),
i borrowed Bob's Canon 450D while Zharif shoots candid pics that made the time stops with the latest Nikon D80.
I tell you, A. Idham's pictures were the ones that inspires me in my initial steps of penetrating the photography world.
I learned a lot through snapping at least 30 pictures a day. That's not enough.
Wishing of getting my own DSLR might come true one day.
Just don't know when.
I've got more things in my mind besides getting a most-wanted DSLR.
huhu...~
I'm just relying on ( Flickr ) and my ( Aminus Portfolio ).
Peoples' opinions and comments on my pictures puts me in a situation that as the basic principle, practice makes perfect.
Can get me one, ah?
Heh.
p.s: my day was such a waste today at urology class. sungguh di anak-tirikan!
.if only the tears were bed of flowers.
i am at both parties.
one side tells me what i was doing was all along right.
the other claims that the other side only knows how to victimize people.
guiltiness boxed me, and i had nowhere to go now.
it's like beyond the understanding of the normal human being mind.
i can't deny nor can i even confess.
yet, i wasn't at the situation when it happened.
judgment was made ahead of me and still, silence broke the lamp that lit the stiffness of the room.
verbalizing would never solve any of these.
i am at paralyze.
stepping back into reality, but when?
it's like being lost in the sea of strangers that keep staring and toss their head once i passed ahead of them.
the water flows unstoppable, till it wet my feet.
it tries hard not to drown me but endlessly, i stood there immobile
waiting for answers to the unreasonableness questions cramming in my head.
i am at OB of the course.
stand still and keep my head up.
for now.
p.s: kak iznee, get well soon!! we're gonna miss ur laughter, ya'know!
.it's the thoughts that counts.
blanxero: kakak
layla tumaisuri: hey adek
blanxero: nakkk tauuuu
layla tumaisuri: nakkkkkkkkkkk
layla tumaisuri: hehehe
blanxero: adek br blk ne
layla tumaisuri: de mane?
blanxero: klua bli brg sket
layla tumaisuri: kakak pun br balik dr kelas
layla tumaisuri: ehehhe
blanxero: adek snggah bundle
blanxero: pastu nmpat 1 tshirt
blanxero: tulis
blanxero: OHANA
blanxero: huhu
blanxero: adek trus bli
blanxero: color merah
layla tumaisuri: ye keeeeeeeee
layla tumaisuri: adeeeekkk
layla tumaisuri: dat's soo sweeetttttt
blanxero: haha
blanxero: nnti adek take pic
layla tumaisuri: yeaaayyy
get my point.
thank you.
***
.my younger twin.
Durah Jasmin Abu Din, 13 years old
KL Gymnast
( Kecil Durah Penuh Berisi )
go go cuzzy!!
˙uʍop ǝpısdn
.Happy 22nd Birthday Fieza!!.
her birthday today marks the first day of winter 2008.
thank you fieza.
you know how much i dislike winter.
hahaha... ;p
last night;
Me : Salam mama. tgh snow nih. mama rindu moscow ke rindu lay? hehe.. mama tak rase nak datang ke?she's totally the opposite of me.
Mama : Lay, belikan mama tiket ke sane.
i missed her so much!
p.s: MAS bile nak ade direct flight from KL nih?
.you took ours, and you'll have to pay it back!.
I need Your guidance.
I wish to be home right now.
Right now!!
p.s: re-edited zillion times.
.The Times fills me much.
truly speaking, i had a great game today although we lost 2-3 to Buttercup.
but hey, mira's goals were perfect enough for us to be proud of. heh..
thanx to k.izni that assisted her from the side.
(ignore my sentences. i ain't good at reviewing games and putting them into words...)
i guess i had improved a lot compared to before.
playing with this and that teams and my team a week is just something i could learn from.
too much, i know.
but as the boyfie said, it's my life and as long as i know how to handle it, i'll enjoy.
and enjoy has limits.
limits that gives the critical thinking process works whether when you're in stress or not.
does this post relates to my FB status?
oh, maybe.
my hands can't synchronize with my head for now.
really need a good, extremely good rest.
and again, tomorrow's a busy day.
damn, i really need my Mr. Boyfie, as much as i need my sleep.
pictures will be out soon.
when, don't ask.
next week's theraphy cycle.
yes, the stress is going to be there.
p.s: if i had a wish, can i have more than 24 hrs in a day please?
