.if only the tears were bed of flowers.
i am at both parties.
one side tells me what i was doing was all along right.
the other claims that the other side only knows how to victimize people.
guiltiness boxed me, and i had nowhere to go now.
it's like beyond the understanding of the normal human being mind.
i can't deny nor can i even confess.
yet, i wasn't at the situation when it happened.
judgment was made ahead of me and still, silence broke the lamp that lit the stiffness of the room.
verbalizing would never solve any of these.
i am at paralyze.
stepping back into reality, but when?
it's like being lost in the sea of strangers that keep staring and toss their head once i passed ahead of them.
the water flows unstoppable, till it wet my feet.
it tries hard not to drown me but endlessly, i stood there immobile
waiting for answers to the unreasonableness questions cramming in my head.
i am at OB of the course.
stand still and keep my head up.
for now.
p.s: kak iznee, get well soon!! we're gonna miss ur laughter, ya'know!
.it's the thoughts that counts.
blanxero: kakak
layla tumaisuri: hey adek
blanxero: nakkk tauuuu
layla tumaisuri: nakkkkkkkkkkk
layla tumaisuri: hehehe
blanxero: adek br blk ne
layla tumaisuri: de mane?
blanxero: klua bli brg sket
layla tumaisuri: kakak pun br balik dr kelas
layla tumaisuri: ehehhe
blanxero: adek snggah bundle
blanxero: pastu nmpat 1 tshirt
blanxero: tulis
blanxero: OHANA
blanxero: huhu
blanxero: adek trus bli
blanxero: color merah
layla tumaisuri: ye keeeeeeeee
layla tumaisuri: adeeeekkk
layla tumaisuri: dat's soo sweeetttttt
blanxero: haha
blanxero: nnti adek take pic
layla tumaisuri: yeaaayyy
get my point.
thank you.
***
.my younger twin.
Durah Jasmin Abu Din, 13 years old
KL Gymnast
( Kecil Durah Penuh Berisi )
go go cuzzy!!
˙uʍop ǝpısdn
.Happy 22nd Birthday Fieza!!.
her birthday today marks the first day of winter 2008.
thank you fieza.
you know how much i dislike winter.
hahaha... ;p
last night;
Me : Salam mama. tgh snow nih. mama rindu moscow ke rindu lay? hehe.. mama tak rase nak datang ke?she's totally the opposite of me.
Mama : Lay, belikan mama tiket ke sane.
i missed her so much!
p.s: MAS bile nak ade direct flight from KL nih?
.you took ours, and you'll have to pay it back!.
I need Your guidance.
I wish to be home right now.
Right now!!
p.s: re-edited zillion times.
.The Times fills me much.
truly speaking, i had a great game today although we lost 2-3 to Buttercup.
but hey, mira's goals were perfect enough for us to be proud of. heh..
thanx to k.izni that assisted her from the side.
(ignore my sentences. i ain't good at reviewing games and putting them into words...)
i guess i had improved a lot compared to before.
playing with this and that teams and my team a week is just something i could learn from.
too much, i know.
but as the boyfie said, it's my life and as long as i know how to handle it, i'll enjoy.
and enjoy has limits.
limits that gives the critical thinking process works whether when you're in stress or not.
does this post relates to my FB status?
oh, maybe.
my hands can't synchronize with my head for now.
really need a good, extremely good rest.
and again, tomorrow's a busy day.
damn, i really need my Mr. Boyfie, as much as i need my sleep.
pictures will be out soon.
when, don't ask.
next week's theraphy cycle.
yes, the stress is going to be there.
p.s: if i had a wish, can i have more than 24 hrs in a day please?
.moonlight ramble.
now that the needles of the watch shows 3.15am
i couldn't sleep a wink anymore.
the mensy pain is doing such great job at the right time!
i don't want to depend on medicine anymore.
i had enough of pharmaceutical drugs trying to maintain and balancing my hormones ever since my first mensy date.
no kidding, i used to be the number one fan of drugs and whatnot.
on a lighter note, i am starting to admire tita's writing on the (preview and review (P&R) matches) for Rufflesia.
the upshot of her proves to be bigger and impressively lofty than her size!
heh..
yeah, you should see how Thumbelina she is compared to her brothers.
i know i should go and boil some hot water and put it in the rubbered bottle like the old days to ease the pain.
gah!
p.s: ada pantang potong kuku malam-malam?
.i need my dope.
i'm wasting my prime time writing this entry.
waking up in the morning feeling so unrefreshed.
and so, mensy resulted. hah!
why the statement if you do not want to?
i hate it when a simple manner of what we had learned at home couldn't be apply much when you have grown older.
where's the 'Thank You'? and the 'Please'?
and yeah, 'I'm Sorry'?
an example that happened last week;
D: weyh, aku nak pinjam benda nih. kiterog punye cam tak best je.
Me: oh, pakai ar. baru lepas pam.
D: (sambil buat sesuatu) same je! cam taik je! tak best ar...
Me: (grr..kalo taknak, takyah ar cakap camtuh!)
D: ala..bosan ar weii.. due-due cam taik!
Me: (to other friend) die pehal? nak pinjam buat care nak pinjam. takyah ar mulut nak lepas camtuh. nak cakap pun cam nak gtau satu dunie.
H: die memang camtuh.. last-last, pakai gak benda kite.
this is where the bad impression comes in and take over me on stage.
eventhough i had known you for years.
keep it plain if you do not favor anything that i admire.
not in a sarcastic statement after i have appreciated you.
and yes, you did make it obvious.
we are all born with the same quality, with the same state of mind.
thinking positively and overcoming circumstances were those things you put in mind, always looking forward.
it's a growing process.
i do not want to spill out too much like i had before due to some inner crisis.
years and experience of us puts me in a different degrees lower than yours.
and i do not mind at all.
it's the attitude that despise me much though.
do not lengthen it.
i guess others had had enough!
whether i am right or wrong, it is truly unclear.
but please, the behavior.
but it's not over yet.
p.s: sleeping is the best medicine. (read: hibernating)
.do you see yourself smiling?.
i want to go all over the world like him!
and yeah, he puts a BIG smile on my face.
p.s: you keep me strong.
.ladies, c'mon!.
Ohana means family.
Family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten.
Giving the meaning of teamwork comes first.
It was hard for us to find a perfect name for our team.
I guess, this suits us well, i hope.
But the logo above isn't permanent.
I was in a hurry and couldn't think out of the box on making any logo.
Nothing came in mind.
Thanx to the internet, i create it using the free online logo maker.
Gah!
( Rufflesia ) people!!
Coming to you this Saturday and onwards!
p.s: parcel, yeay! one more to wait for.
.i'm not a 'kaki bola'.
Of branches;
- Abang Nizar ( broke his ankle ) because he was excessively playing futsal.
- Abang Dinie injured his middle finger after years of playing a keeper position, be it football and even futsal.
- Me? I had my first ankle sprained when I was playing futsal in my 1st year. Bruises? Yeap, a few. And so today, it hurts again, after the game with ( Le' Samba ) team this morning.
Anyways, a new futsal ball for my team! Yeay!
Too bad the guys and I had first played the ball last night.
Yeah, since it was a holiday since saturday till tuesday, i played futsal almost everyday.
I'm all broke right now. I mean, my wallet.
Ah, as long as I'm feeling all right healthy.
;D
p.s: never underestimate others.
.you feel great when you did your best.
From the lil' sis to me;
You and I are not the same,
Nor will we ever be...
But we have a common thread,
That attaches you to me.
A golden thread that's spun so fine,
With so much love and care,
A thread of gold, for us to hold,
That only best friends can share.
A common bond within our hearts,
Love that's rare, a special find.
An ability to feel and see,
Within the heart so blind...
So know my friend I'll be with you,
And you shall be with me.
A lasting friendship, full of joy,
For all eternity.
A nice one Zetty.
Very much thank you that we are someone to each other.
Nothing much that i could help but all these while was the best from my heart.
TTYL!
p.s: lembu punya susu, sapi dapat nama.
.i'm praying hard that it's written in my book of fate.
( One Utama rooftop 2 years back! )Sikin Ahmad IM-ed me this quote;
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself. Love possesses not nor would it be possessed; For love is sufficient unto love. -Gibran, Kahlil
so here's my own POV on this.
trying to understand the meaning of naught itself puzzled me.
there are a noun and an adjective meaning.
noun; nothing, zero, worthless.
adjective; naughty, immoral.
so...
love is a lusty emotion that comes naturally deep within
where it's by the eye of the beholder and for it's keeper.
love is sometimes uncontrollable,
but it holds you on in a twinkling moment.
sharing and spreading love is the one that keeps us going
and that is enough to keep me smiling.
oh, i suck at this.
anyone with more opinions on this quote?
feel free to drop a comment or two!
p.s: an animal in disguise. originality.
