and i'll be the reason for your happiness.

definitely counting down right now
although there's a paper left this saturday
the heart had been jumping up and down the ceiling
trying to recall back the fragrance and ambiance of the room
the smell of the kitchen that used to be our hot-spot
the pond where we swam ignoring the japanese koi fishes swimming around our fleshes
the porch where we washed the cars and all those splashes.
do you think i don't remember?

the 'Wong's' dog that never stops barking
the loitering cats that loves to poo in mama's garden
the dragonfly that makes dad's flower as a pit-stop
and those red-admiral butterflies that thinks they're the best insects around
the neighbour's chauffeur that greets us every morning with his pleasant smile
whenever i took the newspaper that slipped between the irons of the gate.
do you think i don't remember?

the morning when he was in a state of pizza-ness
and i could agree much that i was craving for it too
the day of 'Meet the Parents'
the solo-journey to his place that scares me much
but had been the best day from morning to night
in the wee hours, we knew we understood more than how we reacted
and with that, i got you addicted!
do you think i don't remember?

yes, i do.

abah left me with a condition
which puts me into thinking
if i were not to be in the goats-cum-corns space
then i should be off doing something related to medical
which i have already decided to expand my knowledge by doing this and that
figuring out the right time and the right place
finding the right person to explore with
getting the commitment and helps i need for my future reference
and guess what, my holidays are already packed!
no, it's not even started yet, then i should not assume that i do not have time.
i said i'll TRY buy time, but you're right sarah,
there's no point of trying if i don't make it.
true.

(23rd June 2008)